How can I move on...

Har gått hem från jobb idag, feber, öm i kroppen och allmänt deppig..

Var uppe och sprang innan jobb i morse.. 6 km kl 04:30 ca. så jag tror det var det som triggade igång alltsammans..

Hade en riktig skitnatt, kunde inte somna, tände ljus.. Kollade massa bilder, tänkte på en massa, skratta, grät, skrattade igen, grät lite till..

Jag är så vilsen i mig själv..

Just nu vill jag bara åka hem, vara hemma, jobba hemma, leva hemma, träna själv och hemma..

Har inte sug för något just nu..

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Lucky Now (R.Adams)

I don’t remember, were we wild and young
All that’s faded into memory
I feel like somebody I don’t know
Are we really who we used to be
Am I really who I was

The lights will draw you in
And the dark will bring you down
And the night will break your heart
Only if you’re lucky now

Waiting outside while you find your keys
Like bags of trash in the blackening snow
City of neon and toes that freeze
We got nothing and nowhere to go
We got nothing and nowhere

The lights will draw you in
And the dark will take you down
And the night will break your heart
Only if you’re lucky now

If the lights draw you in
And the dark can take you down
Then love can mend your heart
But only if you’re lucky now

I don’t remember, were we wild and young
All that’s faded into memory
I feel like somebody I don’t know
Are we really who we used to be
Am I really who I was